Alec Meka

black
black black black black
and brown and blue

your worn paint, makeup, and termite zoo
you were dying inside you there was life
i lived in you
and loved you while i hollowed you out
then refilled you

with memories
while we were worn sad and naive

you’re (you were) just what i needed (need(ed))
for a time
my home away from home
i was just what you needed (need(ed))
for a time
we were just sad kids enjoying the sunlight
from the shade

you’ll never have feelings for me
because you can’t
you’re a house
play with your materials and chemicals
and you’re not real
even if you were to me

it was the realest

i swear
that ashy stack of shingles
breathed
while i rebuilt her
flame
she burnt with me